Category Archives: My wife

Life, Death, Sickness How It Affects Your Life 

Life, death, sickness affects some one’s life in some bad ways and you don’t try to let it affect your life but it’s near dang impossible to do because I had to watch my baby daughter Lily die and suffer for her short brief time here on earth and now I’m watching her mother do the same thing but this case with her mother is a long suffering torturous death sentence that I’m witnessing each day, night without any relief from it

 
And as I feel like I’m helpless 
And I am supporting her in every way I know how to but it doesn’t meet my standards 

And this is making me see and feel that my heart is harshly turning bitterly cold because I am a witness, witnessing this through my eyes each day, night making me think why does people have to watch someone you love so much suffer through pain, hurt, sickness as you feel that you aren’t doing your best for them 

And if you mention this to the one that’s suffering this they will say you are helping me more than you know or realize and for you not to worry or think otherwise because you have saved me in a million ways, in a million lifetimes already because you are my hero that has made my sickness your conquest to conquer and rescue me from time and time again

And it’s making me a angry man to have to sit by feeling what feel by just being here and not being able to do more than I’m doing already and feeling like I am not helping the situation at all and how do I stop these feelings before it makes me miss out on the end of her life without even knowing that I am missing it 

And I’m hurting inside that I feel like I’m losing my life because she’s my life, she’s my world and this is ripping my own heart from my chest and jackhammering it beyond hells gates until it’s broken into a zillion~billion pieces that cannot be repaired 

And why does an illness, disease or a on coming death hurt this bad but as I sit here wondering why can’t I take her place because I would in a heart beat 

And I fear when her breathing stops one day that it will be her last one that I will not be able to bring her back from because I have had to do CRP on her before to get a heart beat back and oxygen back in her lungs and I fear one day when I walk in that I will find her laying there dead and her dying all alone when me or our children are not at home 

And as I see her suffer through not being able to intake food or liquids or her own saliva without having difficulties swallowing it without choking on it and the next move is a feeding tube being placed in so she can have that nourishment to keep her living and here with me for as long as I can keep her here with me 

And me seeing all the medical procedures being done on her like she’s the doctor’s lab rat or subject that their testing on and all of their medical treatments that is still in medical trials that they are doing on her and makes me see that there’s nothing that she will not try or do the extend her life here with me and our children  

And this is taking a toll on me because I never imagined having to witness someone that I love deeply, madly, and unconditionally die a slow painful death 

And could you imagine having a long needle filled with a blocking medicine to stop the pain for a short time being placed into your lower portion of your skull and in your neck and then in your shoulders and these shots they give her are about 10~12 of them that do give her and I couldn’t honestly do it myself because she takes them without moving a muscle or flinching or making a sound and she’s one heck of a woman for enduring these shots

And this I have to put it out of mind and just enjoy what time I do have left with her in this world no matter the toll it has on me because she’s the most important thing in my life besides our children because I am her support system and I’ve got to suck it up and be her super hero as long as I can be 

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I Cannot Fathom

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I cannot fathom to be 

a man that feels that he 

isn’t being the best 

support for my wife 

because of my job I do 

and me being a witness

to her slowly being 

wiped out this 

world I feel like I am 

helpless not being able 

to swoop down and 

rescue her and be her 

super hero and I 

feel like I am letting 

her down but as I 

say a prayer for God 

to heal her before I 

lose her completely 

because I cannot live 

my without my wife 

because she is what 

is real to me she 

brings me back 

home when thing’s 

are getting dicey 

around me and 

when bullets are 

flying passed my 

head and the only 

thing I see and hear 

is my wife saying 

baby I am here and 

I may not be with you 

in physical form but 

I am with you spiritually 

and that makes me do 

what I have got do to 

and whatever I’ve 

got to do because 

that girl is my heart 

she keeps me 

breathing and I 

cannot fathom my 

world without her I 

wish I could take her 

sickness away and 

take her place because 

I would lay my own life 

down if God would heal 

her and let me take her 

punishment with her 

sickness she lives daily 

oh please God let me 

take her place because 

I feel so helpless like I 

am a stranger looking 

into her world not 

being able to be her 

hero that has already 

saved her once because 

I cannot let her be 

wiped out with me doing 

all I can to try stop that 

from happening 

because I cannot warp 

my mind around that 

factor and I will not 

accept it because I 

cannot lose her 

completely because 

if she dies I die to 

because I cannot 

fathom my world 

without her in it and 

please God help her 

for me because I cry 

tears of fears of this 

sickness stealing her 

life away from me 

because I’ve been 

loving her to long now 

to just stop loving her 

because loving her 

brings me back home 

when thing’s are bad 

here for me and oh 

please God here me 

talking to you today 

because I don’t want 

to feel like this and 

tell me what I can do 

to save her life 

because I will gladly 

do it because this I 

cannot fathom never











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Tina

Tina,



My dearest love

I love you more than 

I can type here to you 

But I love your hot banging 

curves of your body baby 

And I love all your beautiful 

edges

And I love that beautiful 

smart mouth as I am 

always wondering what’s 

on that beautiful mind 

but we will be alright and 

you are crazy and I’m 

completely out of my 

mind for you girl and 

this journey is no

where near ending 

because as lovers and 

soul mate’s we will never 

separate from each 

because girl this is true 

love can’t you see and Tina 

I wouldn’t change this 

beautiful 

mystical magically 

carpet ride and

Tina I always give you all of 

me and you always give 

me all of you and last 

night dreaming of you 

in my arms making sweet 

endless love to you had me 

waking up in hot~cold 

sweats dripping off my 

body and girl can’t you 

see what you do to me 

and I would follow you 

straight from hell back to 

heaven because I do love 

you, I do and as I slowly 

sip you like a fine wine 

with so much perfections 

that taste so sweet like 

honeycomb to my tongue 

baby as I lap all them with 

my tongue to the very end 

of them for that moment 

and I could be losing 

everything but with you 

my queen I have 

everything that I want and 

really ever need and I 

love you and all of your 

flaws to and I do, I always 

will no matter what 









Dedicated To My Beautiful Wife Tina I love you honey!

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Just The Way You Are

Baby I love the just the 

way you

are because it has me 

slipping

through space into the

darkest hole circling us

and girl you are amazing

just the way you are and

the way you laugh it sends 

chills up my spine and

when you cry with those

lips so stuck out pouting

makes want to hug you

and whisper saying baby

you don’t have to pout

that way and girl when

 your eyes sparkles with 

the blue glow has my heart 

beating like a bass players 

guitar 

hero drumming to the

sound of your beautiful

name and girl when I see

your face you are 

amazing just the way 

you are and I know you’ll 

never believe me but 

baby you are all these

thing’s to me and so 

much more to me so

believe me because

you are amazing and

 you are my heart







Dedicated To My Beautiful Wife Tina!

© Jeff Glover All Rights Reserved




Not One Second

There’s not a second of 

the day that you are 

not on mind because I

dream that you was 

here laying beside 

of me as we simply 

gaze into each 

other’s eyes as

the night sky comes

to life but I know we

are never that far 

apart as I lay here

wondering what you

are doing and thinking 

as the night sky 

comes to life with 

the twinkling 

starlets that 

dances around 

in the sky as I 

slowly drift off

to sleep with you

in my sights 


Goodnight

my beautiful

queen






Dedicated To My Beautiful Wife Tina!

© Jeff Glover All Rights Reserved

My Heart Is Your’s 

My heart is yours 

My love you will have for eternity

You are my dream come true

You are my love of my life 

You my queen

You are my drop dead

gorgeous goddess

You know I have loved 

you from childhood now 

as I will continue my love

for you that way 

We both share some much

passion that is very

passionate, sexual, desirable

My heart beats for you

I want to feel what you feel 

I want to be the one to feel

your pain’s, sickness so you

will not have feel them anymore 

because there’s nothing I 

wouldn’t do for you 

You will always be the keeper 

of my key to my heart because 

there’s no other woman that 

could keep only my beautiful 

wife, my queen, my goddess




My heart is yours

I love you now even beyond death






Dedicated To My Beautiful Wife

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